For some time now, I have enjoyed learning, as much as my feeble mind will handle, about internet security and safe, enjoyable computing. I have also enjoyed being able to share what I have learned with other people that were also looking for answers, opinions, etc. Lately, as some of you may have noticed, I have not been participating much here or on any of the other boards I frequent. Sad to say, it may still be a little longer before I return to my previous level of participation, good news for some perhaps. A little before this last Labor Day weekend, I had the misfortune of getting assigned a new Doctor as my primary care provider at the VA (Veterans Administration). As I soon found out, he happens to be one of those old time physicians that is afraid to prescribe adequate pain management medications, stating things like you could get addicted to that stuff. Well, I have been on Oxycontin for the last two and a half years, and there is no doubt that taking a medication such as that, you do develop a dependency on it. I told him such and said if you won't prescribe it, at least help me to taper off, as sudden cessation of such meds will induce severe withdrawal symptoms. Well, he wouldn't even do that. Also would not talk about what to do about pain management as I can't take NSAIDs because they give me bleeding ulcers. To fast forward thru a lot of VA BS that went on and getting no help there, I went back to my old family Doctor and he is giving me prescriptions for the lower dose, less effective Oxycodone/Tylenol. It's making life bearable, but I still have been going thru some pretty nasty withdrawal symptoms and a lot of shaking for the last few of weeks. I have to pay full price for this, but it's not too bad. Couldn't afford Oxycontin. I can't imagine what Rush is going thru. So, while I'm trying to get adjusted to this, Labor Day weekend rolls around and My wife of 15 years informs me she wants to seperate. I had an idea this was coming but we had always had a great relationship and hoped it would not. Lot of things involved and it's complicated. Anyway, this kind of knocked me off center for a while, and I am still trying to adjust to a different lifestyle and loosing something that has always been a joy to my heart. We are still friends, and I have no anger or bad feelings toward her, but it is a terrible loss to me. She's still trying to sort things out, but in reality, there's no reason to believe anything can be done to ease the conditions that are causing the difficulties. Then a few days later, my hard drive crashed - big time. Lost a lot of info I had backed up, but still on the same drive. Since my wife had been supplying a large part of the budget, this was not what I needed. My Mom and Dad felt sorry for me so they helped me get a new computer as the old one wasn't worth putting more money into. My wife also helped as much as she could. I'm human and got off center for a while, but sanity is returning. I had pizza with the wife last night, and we can still be friends. That's important, and I wish her only the best. I'll miss her, but I am reminded of something I read in one of Gibrans books about people in our lives. Sometimes two people walk the same path for a while, and sometimes it is necessary for their paths to split, each to fulfill his/her own destiny. I'm starting to gain a little interest in the web again, and I miss connecting with many of my friends here. I got reminded of how small my problems are in reading about the problems Blaze and Jan have been having with their eyesight. I hate melodrama and hope this doesn't come across as such. I do not feel sorry for myself, and I am not looking for sympathy. Just want to let you good people know that I care about you enough, that I would not just stop comming around without reason. Hopefully, soon, I will be able to make myself at least a little helpful around here.